Becoming into Being

Throughout my life I have often battled with my emotions to the degree I have suppressed them with the belief they were to much to feel.

Since embracing a compassionate commitment to dive deeper into their presence, I have welcomed the wealth in my heart to feel.

This loving practice of self acceptance has connected painful past experiences to surface with knowing that they have a voice that needs to be heard, seen and felt. By adopting this way of being I can now see how my emotions I battled with became present in the first place. 

To arrive to this place of practice has not always been easy, as I have sometimes convinced myself that I am healed. But these areas of self awareness and healing exist on different levels and my presence in my own healing process is to reach peace before I either ascend or descend. I am conscious that being a man I have carried a deep shame of sitting with my own tears being seen by another, but allowing my body to release such deep sadness and tension has been life changing. 

Witnessing that deep in my mind there is a distant voice telling me I am broken, damaged and weak.

But through my self realisations, this voice is not mine, I was taught to believe this from such a young age that a man does not cry.

And it is this belief that has been both the weapon and the shield in my mind causing me to battle with myself.

Letting all of this be present without self judgement and criticism has been the most compassionate gift I could ever receive.

Because this gift I have received, has come from me feeling that all parts of me have the right to exist and be loved.

What was once depression was witnessed as suppression, an inability to feel what needed to be felt. My tiredness was born from the fear of losing the battle plus believing I wasn’t strong enough to even win. This tiredness was simply resisting feeling my own pain and surrendering to this part of me that loved me so deeply it just wanted to be held and healed. 

I had been taught that it was more manly to fight until the end standing strong and not break. But I was tired and this tiredness just wanted to give up, because then I would finally be free of my pain. But this was never a battle, it was a becoming, to welcome every aspect of myself in loving presence for every experience of my life was here inside of me.

Just imagine a world where we are kind to both ourselves and each other. We are conscious and aware of what we do or say both as words we share and thoughts we feel. These opportunities to witness our thoughts and feelings are so supportive if we welcome compassionate awareness into our lives and this is what I offer in my Inessence sessions. 

Often we are alone with the many life experiences, seducing our minds with beliefs, behaviours and perceptions of ourselves and others. But what if we could give space to these feelings that just want to be felt, be seen and be heard. Be devotedly in love with our soulful selves bringing presence to all that we are. 

It is a way of love that is within our essence.  A reunion of the soul. Healing a hole so we can become whole. We finally come home to who we are because who we are never really left. We just forgot that feeling is healing and we are becoming in being.

© Pete Bengry 2026

Credit to Milad Fakurian for image