The Feminine Inside of Me

I’ve spent years suppressing my pain. Not wanting to feel it, because I held a belief that if I did, it would kill me.

So, I battled with it, suppressing it, believing I am a strong man who can manage his inner emotional pain and still survive. 

But this way of being, is not true and I owe this awareness to women. Because throughout my life, I am so grateful to what women have taught me. I have learned what a woman truly loves in a man and it is his ability to feel and surrender to his emotions, exposing his openness and vulnerability to them.

So when I deeply sit with this gift, I open my heart and welcome this way of being with myself. This brings presence to the core wounds deep inside of me that I once ran away from. However painful this process is, it guides me to honouring and valuing the women I know in my life. For this honouring reunites me to a remembering that I was once born from a woman.  

When I fully embrace this deep sense of awareness I connect to such a soft tender inner love. I do not fight for my breath on the battlefield anymore, as I no longer carry the burden of this inner battle. I release old wounds that were once so deeply woven into my being, they paralysed my very existence.

I open my heart to the raw emotions that wish to surface and I bow down to them with gratitude, honouring the umbilical cord that was once connected to my birth mother. By doing this, I also bow down to myself and reconnect to the very depth of my soul, honouring my arrival as a loving human being.

I honour the femininity inside of me and allow myself to fall to my knees, letting go of what needs to be released. I welcome the presence for the man that I am. Knowing this surrendering is so much bigger than any perception I may have of a man or a woman. I believe this is the most purest presence of life itself and that my heart knows the way.

So I follow with love..   

I share these words with all the women I know and say thank you.
I share these words with all the men I know, trusting that you may remember where you came from. And if you do, welcome your tender heart that softly beats in your chest. Place your hand on your heart and bow down to this earthly presence, for this is the essence of your life..

Let this remembering guide you to who you are and where you wish to be. For when you arrive, your heart will see, that your soul is beyond a he or a she.

Let your heart open wide.
Let your love live inside. 

Thank you

© Pete Bengry 2025 

Credit to Eduardo Barrios for image